Today is the day where everything feels wrong. I just feel like isolating myself from everyone, ignoring each word of what others have got to say, putting the pillow over my head and scream my hearts out. Today is the day where I feel worthless again, I overthought too much, till I got disappointed. Today is the day where I realised when I graduate from my current school, I am not 100% sure and satisfied who my true friends will be. Today is the day where what others said has been haunting me at the back of my head, crashing my dreams for me. Today is a bad day.
Guys, so I’m meeting danseurs (cheryl) this Friday, hopefully! I can’t wait. I missed her so much. :D
I am going to live my dream. And I will. :~)
When I’m 21/22 years old, I am going to move to new york with my great friend (cindy). We’ve already planned out what’s gonna be in our apartment. I’ll be working as a successful musician. Hopefully, opening up a music school for students!!!!!! Hehehehehe. And we’re gonna travel around the world, rome, prague, italy, usa, uk, london, new zealand, japan, anything just name it. YES I LOVE CITY LIFE. AND THAT’S MY DREAM. HEH.
The only time where I’ve felt so much loved was whenever I’m with my grandfather. Every weekend, he would bring me to the zoo, beach, water park, to eat ice cream just to make me happy. He would take pictures of me as he’s into photography. He made my life seemed so carefree. But he passed away when I was six. It’s been 9 years and whenever I feel down, I would take a picture of me and him from my wallet, clenched it in my fist and pray. That’s the only thing I would do. I just wish he’s alive right now.
Okay I am gonna just post the lyrics now. Heehee, don’t judge okay. It’s my first time and uh, I’ve never been in love, so idek why I wrote a song about love/break up song. It’s pretty pathetic cause I can’t sing, I need a singer dangggg. Haha, ok, enjoy. :~)
THOSE THREE WORDS: “I LOVE YOU”
Verse 1:
Oh I could still remember our first date, it was great.
You promised me then that you would stay by my side, forever.
And I held your hand so tight that I was afraid, to lose you.
You promised me that you would call me every night, whenever.
Then…..
Chorus:
What happens now, I’m still feeling blue, where are you?
I missed those nights when you climbed my window, to say hello.
I wish you would do that right now,
I wish you could say those three words: “I love you”
Mmmmmmmmhmhmhmhmmmmm
I love you, I love you.
Verse 2:
And every night, I lay on my bed, thinking what I’ve said.
Oh I could still remember our first kiss, it felt so real.
All those sweet memories haunt me at the back of my head.
Oh I could still remember when you hugged me and called me ‘beautiful’
Then…
Chorus:
What happens now, I’m still feeling blue, where are you?
I missed those days where you sent me letters, saying those three words.
I wish you would do that right now,
I wish you could say those three words: “i love you”
——-this is the climax part (usually in songs they do have)———-
But then you went behind my back, to find a girl to date ‘cause you said you were bored of me.
And when I got there, I saw you kissing her neck and I realised it was our anniversary.
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Last chorus:
And now, I wonder if it’s just a phase in life?
I promised myself that I would forget about you.
I wish I could do that right now,
I guess now I have to say those three words:
(Whisper) “I loved you”
THE END. HEEHEE HOPE YOU LIKE IT OR SOMETHING. :~)
I’M DONE WITH MY SONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Omg so happy so happy. I feel so accomplished. Ugh yay!!!!!!!!!! So happy that I could die.
Omg so my bestest friend (more like a long lost sister), rachael (ra-shell) which I have not seen her for soooo long, made a video for me and posted it up on facebook. I teared, smiled like an idiot. Omg I miss her. I miss sneaking around the band room and taking pictures together while the conductor was still conducting the whole band. I miss fighting with her over little things. I miss going around the school with her just doing absolutely nothing. I miss playing the trombone with her, she’s like the best partner on earth. I miss taking trombone exams with her. I miss those times where we were watching some show at the house till late and I was scolded by my mum, lol. I miss sneaking to her house when her parents did not allow anyone to come over. I miss buying magazines and reading it with her. I miss everything about her. I have so much to tell her, about my life, about everything. I miss her and when I do see her, my life will be complete. What’s life without a best friend. I love you rachael. And I missed you even more.
I was feeling down the whole day so my junior was so sweet and gave me a list of why I should be happy.
” Ah okay. Reasons to be happy. By Cindy.
1. You have a complete family, unlike some people whose parents are divorced.
2. You have food to eat everyday, unlike the people in africa.
3. You have clean water to drink, unlike the africans.
4. You have parents who cares bout you, unlike some people who have drunkards and drug abusers as parents and who cant take care of them.
5. You are only grounded, not jailed or placed in an orphanage.
6. You have nice friends. At least you know who to trust and you have a group of friends. A.k.a, Rachel Low.
7. You have internet access, although your tumblife aint working.
8. You may find yourself ugly, but the natural face of yours is the prettiest.
9. You aint tortured and some people in the world got abused.
10. You are pretty, everyone is. So be happy. Cos you are pretty when you are happy.
love, CiNdY”
Ah she’s the sweetest thing ever. I freaking love her. X
